It’s done. The test is done. I didn’t like it, but HBF said that I was very, very brave (just close your eyes – close your eyes, hard – and clutch someone’s hand and think of a happy place, or any place without long scary needles) and that I didn’t hurt his hand at all when I squeezed it really, really hard. I only cried a little bit – just out of fear, really, which was unavoidable for me – and the attending OB was very kind, and by the time we were out of the amnio room my eyes were dry and I was able to focus on the pressing issue of whether HBF should fetch me cookies or a latte.
I’d like to say that the hard part is over, but it’s not. Now, I’m going to lay very, very still for a day or two and pray that I don’t fall into that percentage of women for whom the amnio does not end well. After that, the hardest part will be over, I think. Then all there is to do is wait for more answers. But whatever those answers are, so long as they involve a Sprout ending up in our arms, we’ll be fine with them, and will proceed in the only way that we know how, with love.
December 6, 2007 at 7:45 pm |
You said it so well. I’m glad the test is over. Rest, and we’re all thinking of you.
December 6, 2007 at 7:54 pm |
Rest up Momma, you did it. Kuddos!
December 6, 2007 at 7:58 pm |
I am so glad the test it over. Please rest and feel all our hugs and good wishes.
December 6, 2007 at 8:01 pm |
I think you’re brave too.
Hugs to you.
December 6, 2007 at 8:05 pm |
Rest and know that we are all praying for you.
December 6, 2007 at 8:21 pm |
oh catherine i’m so glad that the test is done.a big hug to you for being brave and going through with the test.i will be praying for the best possible outcome for your little sprout and youir family.rest well and know that we are all thinking of you.LAVANDULA
December 6, 2007 at 8:21 pm |
I am so glad you made it through ok. I will be keeping you in my thoughts.
December 6, 2007 at 8:23 pm |
I hope HBF got you cookies AND a latte. Rest and be well.
Janet
December 6, 2007 at 8:32 pm |
I am so proud of you, HBM…
Rest, now.
Lots and lots of love, CGF xo
December 6, 2007 at 8:36 pm |
So glad it’s done. We’re thinking of you.
December 6, 2007 at 9:02 pm |
You are incredibly brave. Our thoughts and well wishes are with you, Sprout and Her Bad Gang.
December 6, 2007 at 9:04 pm |
Congratulations for being brave.
It will all work out, I am sure.
December 6, 2007 at 9:06 pm |
Bless you, you brave woman!
December 6, 2007 at 9:10 pm |
Rest up HBM. You were brave. Your answers will come soon.
December 6, 2007 at 9:13 pm |
I’m glad it is over. I was doing a lot of worrying for you.
Relax. Be strong. And Sprout will be fine. The hardest part is getting your mind on other things (which is why it sucks you can’t drink while pregnant.)
December 6, 2007 at 9:15 pm |
Like everyone else, I’m so glad that the test is over for you.
Try to rest, enjoy some tea and cookies (and chocolate) and some coddling from the good husband.
Thinking of Sprout…
December 6, 2007 at 9:17 pm |
Glad you made it through this part. I’ll be crossing my fingers for the results. Rest up and watch something funny.
December 6, 2007 at 9:26 pm |
Enjoy your latte and cookies (You SO deserve both) and I will be thinking lots of good thoughts for you and the sprout.
December 6, 2007 at 9:27 pm |
No matter what, babe.
December 6, 2007 at 9:29 pm |
I was thinking of you all day. I think you deserve cookies AND a latte.
December 6, 2007 at 9:37 pm |
i know i don’t have much to add here, because i’m not a mom who can talk about these tests and what it must feel like to be so uncertain. i just wanted to say that i am so proud of you and honored to know you even just a little bit and that i think you are and always will be an inspiration to mothers – no, women – no, PEOPLE – everywhere.
no matter what.
December 6, 2007 at 9:42 pm |
I think we all agree: cookies AND a latte.
hugs and kisses and thoughts and wishes and prayers (even from an agnostic who doesn’t know you).
December 6, 2007 at 9:45 pm |
Every part of my body “crossed” for a healthy, happy Sprout. No matter what.
http://wordgirl5.typepad.com/apathy_lounge
December 6, 2007 at 9:46 pm |
Been thinking of you all day. Hang tight.
December 6, 2007 at 10:05 pm |
Love to you in all of your bravery. Big supportive hugs being sent your way
xoxox
December 6, 2007 at 10:05 pm |
Lots of healthy baby vibes coming your way. Everything will be okay. I choose to believe nothing else. (((HUGS)))
December 6, 2007 at 10:08 pm |
*phew*
Lie still and rest, you’ve more than earned it. Thinking of you.
December 6, 2007 at 10:54 pm |
And we’ll be here for you, no matter what.
December 6, 2007 at 11:03 pm |
Rest up – fingers will be crossed for you.
I was 40 when I had my son. They told me even before I had my quad screen to expect a positive result. I told my OB no matter what happened, I was fine with it. As it turned out, I got a better score than most 24 year olds.
We suffered from infertility prior to conceiving our son (by IUI), and I remember two of my friends giving birth to their son, who has Down Syndrome and what they went through. I remember thinking at the time “Lord, I would take that result any day if you give me a child to love.” Her experience made my decisions for me.
I was blessed, and you will be too. No matter HOW this comes out.
December 6, 2007 at 11:07 pm |
I’ll keep you in my thoughts and you know things always seem to work out one way or another, they always do.
Lyns
December 6, 2007 at 11:23 pm |
Oh, so glad to hear that the test is all done….get some well deserved rest.
We will all be here waiting for your updates.
More hugs and hand holding to you…
December 6, 2007 at 11:35 pm |
good girl, i knew you could do it. i’ve been thinking about you all day and glad you are now home resting (and being waited on?) if we can do anything for you, holler.
sharon
xo
December 6, 2007 at 11:35 pm |
Good for you. Take it easy, and keep taking those deep breaths. Waiting for the result isn’t easy, but yes, the hardest part is almost over.
xoxoxo
December 7, 2007 at 12:18 am |
Thinking of you and hoping for the best possible outcome.
December 7, 2007 at 12:33 am |
Well you are almost there…you will be in my thoughts. Now it is time to take a rest, think good thoughts and squeeze that adorable WB.
December 7, 2007 at 12:54 am |
Much love to you, Cookie.
You were very brave.
December 7, 2007 at 12:58 am |
Good work, brave woman. Keep your chin up, and we’ll all be hoping for the best for you.
I also have lots of time off in December, so let’s get together a few people for a playdate some day before you go, okay? When do you move?
December 7, 2007 at 12:59 am |
hi, beautiful girl. wishing you good rest, love & light. hang in there…there are lots of hugs out in blogland for you and the whole bad crew.
December 7, 2007 at 1:04 am |
I’ve been thinking of you all day and checked in here a couple of times for an update.
Will you get initial results soon, or will you have to wait for the full report? I’m asking because with us, we got an initial report within a few days (from Thursday evening to Monday afternoon).
SO glad that HBF was on hand for his support and to fetch whatever treat you wanted. Take it easy for a few days and know you’re our thoughts and prayers. Feel free to email me if you like at wvgurl at yahoo dot com.
December 7, 2007 at 1:20 am |
Good work, mama.
Now rest.
December 7, 2007 at 1:31 am |
Your Strength is really amazing–You and your family have been in my thoughts and prayers.
December 7, 2007 at 1:46 am |
Hi, delurking to say well done, I was thinking of you today, best wishes to you from Ireland.
December 7, 2007 at 1:47 am |
Cookies, a latte, and a fluffy book to cozy up with. You are brave and strong and a very very good mommy.
December 7, 2007 at 1:49 am |
So glad it’s over, and that you were brave. You are actually far braver than I. And we will all be here for you, nomatterwhat.
December 7, 2007 at 1:50 am |
Well done, get yourself some pelvic rest, rest, rest. & good luck x
December 7, 2007 at 2:13 am |
Much love to you and Sprout.
Rest and relaxate, latte at the ready…and float. We gotchya.
xxoo
December 7, 2007 at 2:13 am |
Rest, hon. Rest, you did well.
December 7, 2007 at 2:34 am |
You were very, very brave. And you continue to be so.
December 7, 2007 at 3:04 am |
Sending you much love and virtual cookies.
December 7, 2007 at 3:21 am |
xx’s and oo’s in spades.
December 7, 2007 at 3:39 am |
your bravery is very, VERY inspiring. obviously, you’re in a lot of people’s thoughts…i truly hope that helps at least a bit.
December 7, 2007 at 3:58 am |
I’d have the cookies AND the latte. Why choose?
Thinking of you and sending you hugs.
A
December 7, 2007 at 4:35 am |
A hundred warm prayers and hopeful thoughts for you–
December 7, 2007 at 5:40 am |
You’re in my thoughts these last few days…hang in there. And eat all the cookies you want.
December 7, 2007 at 6:13 am |
brave you.
December 7, 2007 at 12:20 pm |
Why does it have to be cookies or latte? I say both. Be still, be calm, be peaceful – xo.
December 7, 2007 at 12:57 pm |
You are very brave indeed. I’ll be thinking about you. Take care of yourself and Sprout.
amy at thetextureofthings.com
December 7, 2007 at 1:16 pm |
You are very brave, I agree. Rest up! You will continue to be in my thoughts.
December 7, 2007 at 1:46 pm |
I’m proud of you! Take care and rest for a few days (easier said than done with a little one). You’re in my thoughts…
December 7, 2007 at 2:28 pm |
I hope you’re not sitting up right now. Rest and cookies.
December 7, 2007 at 2:33 pm |
I think you deserve cookies AND a latte, sweetie. I was thinking about you a lot yesterday. Big hugs!
December 7, 2007 at 2:34 pm |
Well done getting through the test, I know you must have been very scared and upset.
We’re pulling for you.
December 7, 2007 at 3:33 pm |
the bluegrass chapter of the HBM fanclub is pulling for you and your family.
well done.
December 7, 2007 at 4:56 pm |
Rest up, stay still and enjoy the cookies. much love. xo.
December 7, 2007 at 4:59 pm |
Much love and virtual cookies sent your way friend.
Smooches.
December 7, 2007 at 5:05 pm |
Thinking about you guys.. relax, and try not ot think about (Yeah I know, not happening)
*hugs*
December 7, 2007 at 5:42 pm |
Praying for you.
December 7, 2007 at 5:54 pm |
I’m proud of you.
I hope the wait isn’t too long.
xo
December 7, 2007 at 7:53 pm |
Whew! That’s done and soon you’ll have the results. Feet up and a cookie in each hand sounds like a good place to be right now.
Good Job Mama!
December 7, 2007 at 8:12 pm |
GREAT JOB.
Take it easy now…rest and wait. HUGS
December 7, 2007 at 11:31 pm |
You are brave and strong! You deserve both cookies and lattes!
Rest and take it easy. And know that you are not waiting alone. We will all be here with you.
December 7, 2007 at 11:33 pm |
I’m so very proud of you. My prayers will continue. Hugs.
December 8, 2007 at 1:51 am |
Good job being brave. Hope you got the cookies and the latte, and that you can take it easy, in your head as well as off your feet, for a while. We (as you can clearly see from all these comments) are all wishing you well.
ciao,
rpm
December 8, 2007 at 2:11 am |
Deep breath. And release.
I know it won’t be any easier to relax until you know the results of that test, but try to take it easy. Thinking lots of good thoughts for you.
December 8, 2007 at 3:27 am |
i have been thinking of you. big love from here. nomatterwhat.
December 8, 2007 at 9:42 am |
You are brave. I am thinking of you and your little one.
December 8, 2007 at 7:08 pm |
I was running on the treadmill yesterday and I saw a woman across the street and I thought might be you. Then I thought, no, she will, she should, be lying down.
rest well. xo
December 8, 2007 at 7:24 pm |
Sending you good, restful, healthy Sprout wishes!
December 9, 2007 at 6:28 am |
I love your line of thinking. I feel the same. And you know what, it probably isn’t Downs. But if it is, it is still a perfect baby. Because it’s meant to be here. And you will all grow bucket loads due to this precious gift. It’ll be more work, but fuck it. It’s gonna be worth it. I am so proud of you, and I don’t even know you. MUCH luck.
December 9, 2007 at 4:10 pm |
I had the amnio Wednesday… with the marvels of modern technology, the preliminary results came Friday afternoon… ALL IS FINE.
And since you and I seem to be on the same vibe for our pregnancies… I have complete confidence that YOUR test is fine too.
December 9, 2007 at 6:53 pm |
Wow, Lydia. I’m not due to get results for 2 – 3 weeks – and that’s having gone to one of the best genetics programs in Canada. so happy for you though!
December 9, 2007 at 10:28 pm |
you are amazing.
take care, ‘k?
December 10, 2007 at 6:31 am |
My palms got sweaty just READING that. I would go into full on anxiety attack if I had to have that test.
You are brave. You deserve a latte AND a medal, darling.
December 16, 2007 at 8:30 pm |
wow, sorry to hear you’ve been going through this. I’m with you — once you’re on this side of the motherhood fence, it would be no matter what for me too. Anything else is impossible to imagine. Before I had a child (or I guess it’s children now) I would have said otherwise. But yes, no matter what. Sending you vibes of strength.
December 18, 2007 at 10:19 am |
I’ve been offline, so I know all is well now, but oh how I remember the loooooong needles for this procedure.
My good wishes are with all of you while you await the results.